Because of the number of requests to put JSN back online from frustrated users unable to access crew links and resources, I have returned this website to normal.

But nothing will return to normal for me.

I am a father. I have two very small preschool children and I live in the United States. As a dad, or even as a human being, words can't describe my anger, sadness, sorrow, and utter contempt and disgust for our toxic society right now.

While we're all playing Angry Birds, celebrating the holidays, and opening gifts, parents in Connecticut will be lowering tiny coffins into the cold ground.

Whatever belief I had previously in a God or any other higher power is now gone. Gone, gone, gone. Of that, I am certain beyond all doubt.

Unless you are someone's dad or mom, you'd have no possible idea of just how deep of a loss those parents must be feeling right now. And neither do I actually.  However deep their pain goes, they will continue to feel it every single second of every single day for the rest of their lives. Time means nothing when stacked against the loss of a child. Absolutely nothing.

Multiple that pain times 20.  Then times 1,000,000,000 and just keep going from there.

I don't even know how to explain this culture of guns and violence to my children.  I'm sure many parents had the same dilemma after 9/11.

Only this time, everything just feels different. And I refuse to habituate to news reports of children being murdered at preschool.

Hopefully one day, the people who reside in this country will actually put down their smartphones and plug back in to their children, perhaps sit and listen to them, address our bullying toxic culture, and get serious about mental health care.  And fuck the 2nd Amendment.  Fuck it straight to hell.

Our culture, as one reporter put it:

“...promotes paranoia, desensitization to violence, almost unlimited access to lethal weapons, opportunities to practice mass murder via realistic "point and shoot" video games and games that justify violence as a legitimate form of vengeance in pursuit of an individual's or group's idea of justice.

So what do we do? We can improve mental health services in schools and communities.

We can get behind efforts to rid our country of semi-automatic weapons and prohibit high-capacity ammunition clips for any gun.

We can work harder at creating emotionally safe schools where bullying and rejection are antithetical to school spirit.”

I absolutely weep at the loss of these sweet and wonderful souls.

I love them.  All of them.  Go and see them right now.  Please.  And never stop loving them.  They deserve that at least --- and so much more.

Only then maybe real change and action will be achieved.  Until that time, nothing will return to normal for me.